Social Anxiety Disorder

I think I have it.  Except I don't know the reasoning behind it.  Wikipedia (I know, reliable source ha) says that the reason people have this is because they have a "persistent, intense, chronic fear of being judged by others and of being embarrassed or humiliated by one's own actions".  I'm not too afraid about being judged by others, but I guess I do get embarrassed or humiliated in front of others super easily.  And I have no clue why.  I can be goofy in front of others, but once I become aware that everyone is staring at me, I get all shy.  I don't care if I make a fool of myself in front of others, so I don't know why I get that way.  So I continued reading and saw what the physical symptoms are:

• Excessive blushing.  Check.
• Sweating.  Check.
• Trembling.  Sometimes.
• Palpitations.  Check.
• Nausea.  Double check.
• Stammering may be present, along with rapid speech.  Check.

Yup.  I have social anxiety disorder.  That would explain my excessive blushing that people like to point out.  Thank you, yes, I  know.  I can feel my face blushing.  And them pointing it out makes me turn even more red.  This especially happens when I answer questions in class.  In my mind, I have no reason to be embarrassed, so I don't know why I get embarrassed.  "Brandi, why are you blushing?"  I have no clue.

This week is the week of class presentations.  I did one yesterday, and I have one today. How did yesterday's go?  Terrible.  If I have something I can read off of, I don't mind because then I am looking down at a paper reading the words (and occasionally looking up, but only to glance at the audience--not enough to scare me to death).  No matter how rehearsed I am, every time I get up to give a presentation, my mind gets all jumbled and my words come out stuttered and making no sense. And I don't like being in the spotlight and having all eyes on me, so I try to spill everything out so I can hurry and sit down.  My presentation was the shortest one in the class.   So, I am anxious for today's presentation.  Actually, it's more of a lesson.  Great. I am supposed to give a presentation for 30 minutes, but my teacher gave me the whole class time because we don't have any chapters to go over in the book.  Great.