Social Anxiety Disorder

I think I have it.  Except I don't know the reasoning behind it.  Wikipedia (I know, reliable source ha) says that the reason people have this is because they have a "persistent, intense, chronic fear of being judged by others and of being embarrassed or humiliated by one's own actions".  I'm not too afraid about being judged by others, but I guess I do get embarrassed or humiliated in front of others super easily.  And I have no clue why.  I can be goofy in front of others, but once I become aware that everyone is staring at me, I get all shy.  I don't care if I make a fool of myself in front of others, so I don't know why I get that way.  So I continued reading and saw what the physical symptoms are:

• Excessive blushing.  Check.
• Sweating.  Check.
• Trembling.  Sometimes.
• Palpitations.  Check.
• Nausea.  Double check.
• Stammering may be present, along with rapid speech.  Check.

Yup.  I have social anxiety disorder.  That would explain my excessive blushing that people like to point out.  Thank you, yes, I  know.  I can feel my face blushing.  And them pointing it out makes me turn even more red.  This especially happens when I answer questions in class.  In my mind, I have no reason to be embarrassed, so I don't know why I get embarrassed.  "Brandi, why are you blushing?"  I have no clue.

This week is the week of class presentations.  I did one yesterday, and I have one today. How did yesterday's go?  Terrible.  If I have something I can read off of, I don't mind because then I am looking down at a paper reading the words (and occasionally looking up, but only to glance at the audience--not enough to scare me to death).  No matter how rehearsed I am, every time I get up to give a presentation, my mind gets all jumbled and my words come out stuttered and making no sense. And I don't like being in the spotlight and having all eyes on me, so I try to spill everything out so I can hurry and sit down.  My presentation was the shortest one in the class.   So, I am anxious for today's presentation.  Actually, it's more of a lesson.  Great. I am supposed to give a presentation for 30 minutes, but my teacher gave me the whole class time because we don't have any chapters to go over in the book.  Great.

Jazz Game

We went to a Jazz game, only to root for the Knicks.  Well, I didn't really root for anyone but Robert wanted to go for the Knicks.  It was my first Jazz game, and it was different than going to BYU games.  Mainly because people were always coming up the stairs with a cup of beer sloshing around in their hands (and sometimes onto their hands... and one time a little splashed on me.  So gross).  But hey, we got free sunglasses.

I know... I look terrible in sunglasses.  So not flattering.

Waiting for the game to start.

It was a close game throughout, but the Knicks ended up winning the ball game.

On a random note... Look at my hair.  I don't like it.  I don't know what to do with it!  Some days I want to get bangs back, but I don't like them in my face and constantly having to fix them (they always split down the middle and it was so annoying).  On the other hand, my hair just looks boring without bangs, and curling my hair hardly works well, or I just don't have the time to do it.  Oh the woes of lame hair.

Birthday Weekend for Pops-In-Law

This weekend James and Stacey, and Emmali came down from Idaho to celebrate my father-in-law's birthday on Sunday.  It was more of a birth-weekend than a birthday.  After school and work, Robert and I ran to a couple of stores for my Housing and Interiors class before going to his parent's house for lasagna.  For some reason I am having a hard time remembering what else we did on Friday.  All I remember is that it was a late night so Robert and I slept over.  And if I am remembering correctly, we may have celebrated some of the birthday with presents.  Possibly milkshakes as well.  Robert had work early in the morning on Saturday, so he left for that while I slept in.  We had yummy breakfast casserole, which I brought some to Robert while he was at work so he wouldn't starve.  Soon after that we all headed over to the BYU rugby game against New York (the semi-pro finalists from last year... or something like that).  It was an intense game!  Last week's game against USU was boring cuz BYU just creamed them.  No competition.  But the game against New York was insane!  It was super physical, and there were a lot of hard hits.  It looked like one guy on the BYU team got a concussion because he was wobbling off the field (they ended up carrying him off cuz he just couldn't walk himself, even with support from two other guys).  Another BYU guy smacked into a guy on the opposing team, plus a guy on his own team, and he just lay on the field not moving a muscle.  He laid there for like 15 minutes without moving at all until they called an ambulance.  That game was definitely one of the better rugby games I've been to.  Speaking of the rugby game... there was a lady there with really bright yellow hair with orange streaks in it.  I just had to take a picture, but I am going to blur her face out just in case... In the picture she's like glaring at me (or at someone near me).  But... I'm too scared to post it haha.  I uploaded it and everything, but I'm too scared I'll get in trouble or something so I deleted it.
After the rugby game I went to the store Pebbles in My Pocket (a craft store) with my mother-in-law and Emmali.  We wanted to do some cute spring/Easter crafts because my mother-in-law had shown us some cute wood block crafts online earlier that day.  While we did that, the guys went to Kranky Franks in Springville to buy us some lunch (they were raising money for a good cause).  We didn't do our crafts till later because everyone was just drained, so it was nap time!

 Here are my cute bunny and chick

From left to right: Emmali's bunny & chick, Stacey's, moms, and mine

It took like 2 hours to work on those haha.  But it was fun.  It was another late night that night.  Emmali, Robert and I watched "Liar, Liar" till midnight when we went to bed.

Sunday Robert and I went to church (and had a hard time getting up... I hate Daylight Savings in the spring.  Who wants to lose an hour of sleep?) and then came back to Springville afterward for the "real" birthday dinner: chuck roast and funeral potatoes.  Two of my favorite foods!  The birthday cake and ice cream came soon after dinner.  James, Stacey and Emmali went back up to Idaho after the cake and ice cream, and Robert worked on our taxes while I watched him.  Yeah.  Let's just say it was an unpleasant experience.  We were both excited to be earning some money back from the government, but no.  Apparently the government wants to steal more money from us.  Seriously?  Taxes.  Psh.

This morning I slept through all (like 5 alarms with mine and Robert's combined) our alarms.  I had a super hard time getting up (worse than Sunday).  Yay for Daylight Savings.

Friday Funnies

Just sitting here at work with half of the people already having left for the weekend :(  So I might as well cheer myself (and you readers) up.  Don't get me wrong.  Today has been an amazing day (don't know why, but today has been really good)!  But we might as well start the weekend off right, right?

March of the Centipedes

Look at that nasty thing.  This morning as I was getting ready when this little critter marched right near my foot.  And this wasn't the first time it happened.  This happened a couple of days ago at around the same time (and no it wasn't the same centipede because I killed and flushed the other one).  Either it's coming into the house from our heater in the bathroom, or it's been living in our bathroom and was just going home to the cracks under our bathroom cabinet.  I can only imagine thousands of these buggers infesting the space under our floors/bathroom cabinet.  So gross.  But I can happily say I'd rather have these walking around by my feet (they still gross me out...) than spiders.

Beware. A Hair.

I have this strange thing with wet hairs.  I've had this thing since I was a wee toddler (or so my parents say).  I don't like seeing hairs floating around in the bathtub (which is a huge factor in why I don't like baths), and I especially don't like them on me.  Why?  Because they stick and stick and won't come off!  And it's gross!

That's me trying to get the hairs off.

It's weird that something from when I was so young and don't even remember has carried on with me till this day.  You can even ask Robert.  I avoid stepping on hairs in the shower like the plague. But I am thankful for a husband who puts up with me and all my quirkiness.